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paul from cleveland
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What happens when you die?
by AGuest into the household of god, israel, and those who go with... may you have peace!.
a week or so ago i ran across a post asking what happens when we die.
i had meant to respond then, but got distracted and then could not find the post again.
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Would you be shattered if your mate had sex with someone else? Why?
by goldensky inplease don't say, "yes, for obvious reasons".. it's not obvious to me..
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paul from cleveland
oops, I forgot to the answer the question: No, I wouldn't be shattered. I'd welcome it. For the reason stated above.
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Would you be shattered if your mate had sex with someone else? Why?
by goldensky inplease don't say, "yes, for obvious reasons".. it's not obvious to me..
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paul from cleveland
I want to post again on this thread because it strikes at the heart of an issue I'm going through now.
I feel guilt, now, for what I've done in the past. I don't know if I'd call it cheating but I do know I've hurt a lot of people.
In a nutshell, I fell deeply in love with more than one person at the same time. Three to be exact.
I didn't feel that I loved one over the other, I loved each with all my heart. I've always felt that love is infinite so there is not a limited quantity that has to be doled out in certain proportions. I gave my whole heart to all three.
They, of course, didn't feel that way. Each wanted an exclusive relationship but I just couldn't pick one to the exclusion of the others. I could never leave any of them.
Having one relationship is a lot of work. Having three was more than I could handle. I encouraged each one to form other relationships because that would remove some of the burden from me of caring for the emotional and sexual needs of three people. None of them wanted to do that, however, and became more and more jealous of each other as time went on. True to my Witness upbringing, I told them that their love for me must be lacking because "Love is not jealous". I told them if they truly loved me they wouldn't feel that way.
This turned out to be the biggest regret of my life. Doubting their love. I feel unimaginable guilt over this. I know now that each one truly does love me with all their heart also. Each one stayed with me and put up with this untenable situation. I reserve the greatest regret, however, for my first partner. The other two knew what they were getting into with me. The first one had to learn the hard way.
Eventually, number 2 and 3 left and found other relationships. They are happily involved with other people yet we remain very close to this day. Maybe even closer. My first partner, however, could never and can never get over the experience. We're still together, and I've been forgiven, but I can not forgive myself. As time goes on my guilt grows ever greater. I'm to the point now that I want to break up because I can't live with myself. I won't be the one to choose to leave, however, because that would make me feel even worse. Guilt is a horrible thing.
Anyway, that's where I am now. Wishing I could undo the past. Swimming in a sea of regret.
I hope this isn't too much information and I hope you don't think less of my now. I just felt if I couldn't open up here, what's the point?
Thanks for reading.
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How many here desire 'Reality' over the fantasy of eternal life?
by AK - Jeff inme.. wasting time believing in such silliness is like hoping one day to turn into mickey mouse.
why not accept life now, while you have it, and understand that like all others before you, you are going to die too.
you won't wake from that.
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paul from cleveland
okay
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Would you be shattered if your mate had sex with someone else? Why?
by goldensky inplease don't say, "yes, for obvious reasons".. it's not obvious to me..
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paul from cleveland
I think infidelity can be forgiven but never forgotten. The wounds may heal but the scars last forever.
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How many here desire 'Reality' over the fantasy of eternal life?
by AK - Jeff inme.. wasting time believing in such silliness is like hoping one day to turn into mickey mouse.
why not accept life now, while you have it, and understand that like all others before you, you are going to die too.
you won't wake from that.
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paul from cleveland
One of the things that got me through a difficult childhood was believing the story my mother told me about my guardian angel. I think it was passed on to her from her mother.
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How many here desire 'Reality' over the fantasy of eternal life?
by AK - Jeff inme.. wasting time believing in such silliness is like hoping one day to turn into mickey mouse.
why not accept life now, while you have it, and understand that like all others before you, you are going to die too.
you won't wake from that.
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paul from cleveland
Jeff, if you're dying of terminal cancer, is it wrong to hope for a cure? If you're suffering in life now, is it wrong to hope for something better afterward? It's just a hope. Why would you want to take that away from someone by convincing them that they're wrong? Why does it bother you that someone believes this?
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Once a cheater, always a cheater
by Quillsky inif you discover, while getting to know a potential partner, that they have cheated on a previous partner........ don't touch them.
run run run.. in my opinion a cheat remains a cheat.
opportunity is the variable.. please discuss..
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paul from cleveland
Quillsky, if you haven't sinned yourself, you can be the first to burn me at the stake.
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paul from cleveland
I do. My friends keep saying "just let it go already!" when they see the 'Jehovahs-Witness' banner. They think I'm going back. They can't understand that it's a support group for me.
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